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my microdermal stud came today. i gotten 2 tiny ones. which should i use? both are about 2.5mm in diameter. i hope they can be used, unless there's a reason that small studs can't be used initially, maybe they may get swallowed by the skin? haha i dunno. my anchor has not arrived yet.

pink tourmaline stud.


alexandrite stud.


alexandrite stud would be easier to hide (during work in future), although i really love the colour of pink tourmaline. gems are of different sizes cuz both are of different designs. right now im inclined towards the pink tourmaline stud.

and yesterday my eyelash curlers (bought from sasa online shop) came! they're point eyelash curlers, which only curl section by section (because normal curlers always do not catch all my eyelashes! and my lashes turn out ugly using normal eyelash curlers. im so happy! i can finally have pretty curled lashes!

eyelash curler 1


eyelash curler 2


curler 1 is harder to use/control. but with curler 2 i can't reach certain parts because im right handed and i can't bend my arm enough to hold the 'tweezer' at the right angle. so with both, i get to curl all my lashes nicely! this is the result:



the bottom of the curlers touch my eyeball when i use them though, so i have to be slow and careful while using them. but i think i'll get better with practice :D

and yesterday my mom made this mini kitty plush for me after being inspired by this shop on etsy.

:D

{original post on 19 jan 2010 9:06pm}

i really don't feel very good now. my nose is running less, my throat feels way better now but im feeling lethargic at the moment.

and i have not ran since friday. it's tuesday now and i think i am losing my stamina and i need to be able to run 6km in a go by the end of the month!! i hope i can quickly regain my stamina. hopefully i can go run tomorrow, my mom did not allow me to run on sunday.

it's thursday now and it seems that i have not gotten well yet. just came back from school and i think im getting more sick. i really feel extremely tired right now, every movement i make zaps a lot of my energy. maybe it's because i didn't take lunch today. but normally i can go w/o lunch pretty well. i think being sick+skipping lunch is not a good combination.

but during noon time i finally went to pierce my ear!! esther is so sweet to accompany me, another friend was supposed to go with me but something cropped up for her and esther volunteered to go with me. she is so nice!! i feel like a piece of crap that does not deserve people's kindness. everytime someone is nice to me i feel like shit but when people are horrible to me i feel like a even worse piece of shit. ahh whatever i do, whatever others do my self esteem has just been spiralling down and down and down recently. i really wish i can be a better person and treat others better but i think im so horrible and repulsive and people are better off hating me, although if they did i'll feel completely terrible!

so this is my ear now

yes it is not photoshopped! it is real! im so happy! esther says she does not get this kind of happiness but when i pierce although i get happy but it's very temporary and i think right now im having mood swings and other than short bursts of happiness here and there i really feel horrible.

and the piercer is very friendly!!! but esther says he looks 'unreliable' hahaha!! i think maybe it's because he was lazing around before we entered and was doing things in a very relaxed manner?? haha. but out of the three piercers whom have pierced my ear so far i think he's the best (that's why i came to this shop). however i hope he was not irritated with me because i was mumbling a lot of nonsense. and and my rook piercing didn't hurt at all (i think together with my snug it was the least painful out of all. im coming to a conclusion that 16g piercings hurt less than 14g piercings). i was expecting it to hurt like crazy. however my outer conch HURT LIKE CRAZY!! ok not crazy i guess i can still take the pain but it's quite a lot more painful than i imagined! i thought the outer conch would be painless and it turns out that i am very wrong!! i could finally feel the crunchy feel others describe their piercings, out of all my piercings this is the only one where i can feel the needle crunching it's way though my cartilage. i could also feel the jewelry doing the same. however the pain went away pretty fast and completely subsided in about 15 min. now it's months and months of healing time awaiting me!

anyway i feel a little less tired now that ive eaten my dinner. i really want to recover by this weekend! i think i should sleep early today. im going off now, i feel really unwell right now.