haha ive been making quite a few silly videos.

my ciba vision air optix aquas, my new love!


and how to look like you've got a large iris w/o circle lens


extremely superficial. whatever. (my friend always say i use whatever when im at a loss of words while trying to defend myself. i agree haha)

isn't whatever a useful word?

5 more days to the end of exams! im feeling extremely drained now, i just want it to be over as soon as possible!

then im gonna trim (not cut. im still being a wimp) my hair after that. it's getting a little bottom heavy. and i really want to rebond my fringe, but i think i can't.

today is a weird day.

i burnt my hand in the morning trying to make coffee.

there is a huge bruise on my knee and i don't know why.

and this morning while i was still in bed, my eyebrow bone hurt a lot and i don't know why. it's as if there is a lump of pain floating up and down my eyebrow (yes it kept moving from left to right and back to left) and it was so painful. it seems like my eyebrow has a mini spasm.

but today i managed to stay awake (i didn't fall asleep, not even once!) in the library! this is like the only time i remember not falling asleep while studying. normally i think at least 30% of my studying time is spent falling asleep.

i was telling sherlene a list of stuff i wanna do. i realise my list is very long, and ive not started on any. and it's unlikely i'll start on any soon :( but well, i can dream.

what i wanna do:

1. learn the guitar!!!! -> most important!
(the rest are in any order)
2. learn german (rouhua wanna learn too)
3. finish learning japanese
4. learn fashion design/sewing
5. learn how to use adobe illustrator and create a piece of art that does not look amateurish
6. learn music engineering

it seems my list is pretty short actually. i can't think of anything else for the moment.

but here is my extended list:

8. be a better person (this is too vague i guess)
9. do not get agitated easily or get angry at little things
10. have a softer voice (without having to control it!)
11. be more considerate to others
12. have more compassion
13. have more perseverance in the things i do
14. be smarter, more witty, more quick thinking, more street smart.
15. be able to think before i speak.
16. be more sociable
17. be charismatic

and lastly, my ambitious wishlist!

18. have my own home. completely paid up.
19. have a kitty
20. have a car
21. being able to live comfortably for the rest of my life w/o worrying about money, housing, health problems, or any other problems that exist.
22. jet set around the world
23. help others generously with lots of time and money
24. retire early and open my own shop

doesn't sound very possible.


this is my avatar on Gaia. i like it a lot, it's so cute! and it looks like me ^^

im watching liar game 2 now (bits of pieces because i have to study) and akiyama is so so so charismatic! i also like nao (erika toda). i wanna watch more dramas, i want my exams to end now now now now now >(