i had a very very very nice driving instructor yesterday ^^ friendly and encouraging instructors actually do exist!!!! (actually my other instructors are very nice too, but yesterday's one was ultra ultra ultra nice) anyway he recommended that i go get a fixed instructor as my test is coming up soon. i wanted to book one particular instructor, but it seems that someone has booked him already :( only managed to book him for one lesson :( ah :( sad :( but nvm, ive booked another one, at least i know im not gonna get the scary and fierce one anymore ^^ all my instructors are nice except for that particular one. he makes me feel lousy and drive lousy. I WANNA PASS MY DRIVING TEST!

anyway i feel like im eating too little, i need to eat more :( but im already eating more than an average person, and i think i will grow fat :( but right now i feel so weak and hungry x.x i wish i can eat less like other people. and i need to find someway to cure my addiction to bubble tea!! i really need to reduce my sugar and fat intake.

today is sunday.

you know, i really envy some people.

i envy people who can turn a situation around. when people give you criticism, or say you're working in the service line and someone complains, you're able to think fast, react in a way that help calm the other party down and keep your cool and think of solutions that work. i wish im like that too. i only know how to get angry, get frustrated, throw a temper, not think straight and end up making things worse.

i envy people who are really intelligent. people who can seem to come up with solutions for everything.

and now i am an adult but i really don't feel like one. i say stupid things, do stupid things, talk like a child, act like a baby. i wish i can grow up and present myself as a better person. be more sensible and matured and not think like a kid anymore.

anyway my mom will probably say stop wishing and do something about it instead of just talking.

yeah i need to do something. i need to change!

anyway i just checked my cbox. there was a spammer criticising my huge and ugly nose. whatever! it may not be perfect, but it has served me well for the past 21 years and i don't see a need to change it! im thankful with what im born with, im healthy and and im not very ugly or anything, if you're a firm believer in plastic surgery that's your own problem. and i won't mold any part of my face to fit your standard of beauty. i have your IP address and i won't hesitate to ban anyone who leaves stupid comments here. if you don't like what you see here please go away.

i opened two new pairs of lenses the past few days :D

brown



and blue, my blue lenses are so absolutely pretty!


pretty right!


i love blue eyes!


my new arm warmers

and two out of my 4 unopened pairs of lenses :D