i feel a little depressed today.

i drove extremely horribly and dangerously today. i realise, with certain instructors i tend to drive better (or is it cuz they don't point out my faults and stress me out?), and with certain instructors i get nervous and start making stupid mistakes.

whatever it is, i must drive better next week!

anyway when your day starts out badly the rest of the day feels like shit.

anyway i think life is very unfair.

sometimes i wonder what the hell am i doing. im here wasting my parents money, wasting their time, wasting their efforts and so far i give them nothing in return.

on the other hand, people are out there starving, having low paid jobs, losing their homes, and esp people in third world countries, when i read or see pictures about them i don't know what to feel.

the recession is not even affecting me currently. i have more than enough food, a roof over my head, given the opportunity to go overseas from time to time.

im far from rich. but when i compare myself to people who do not come from a well to do background, sometimes i think i don't deserve being where i am currently.

but of cuz please don't ask me to become poor or anything. i agree i am selfish. i just wish the world can be a fairer place and no one starves and everyone has a roof over their heads.

right now is sunday morning. i will have having a tutorial later.

i got new lens EOS m202


i wanna get the blue and brown ones. but these are quite expensive.

today is friday 20th march!

i have finally finished learning everything about driving, all the skills. now it's revision lessons left. i hope i don't get the same instructor next week which i got last week. they do alternate weekly shifts, so you have the chance of getting the same instructor every alternate week. the instructor i had last week was sooooo scary!! used to have another instructor for last week's alternate week, but i dunno why ive been getting this scary one lately! i feel damn lousy whenever i have this scary instructor.

i look so crappy when im natural.

yay. just add on circle lens and i look soooo much better, even without eyeliner. the magic of circle lens is amazing ^^

haha my forehead is terrble! im still waiting for it to clear up ^^

i should learn to accept my natural look more. im getting too used to circle lens now (and i must find some way to curb my addiction to eyeliner)

by the way, here are my neo 230 two tone greys, it is such a pretty grey lens! and i have rebonded my fringe!!!!!! it no longer curls to the side!!! YAY!!! except it is flatter now and left side (the long parts at the side) doesn't have it's signature flick anymore :( i like that flick. other than that i hated my curly fringe. my mom thinks my fringe is too flat now, she says she is struggling to make her thin and flat hair thicker and here i am flattening my hair! haha.

my lens look amazing indoors i love them so much!!!! they look good even from the side, and they give this eerie grey glow~


and in natural light but not very close to the window



in the dark corner of my room. i like how the lenses look in dim lighting!


and here i have my fringe all down. i seem to have lost my fringe parting after rebonding. i have to keep pushing my fringe to the side if i wanted a parting.


i think im gonna wash my fringe today. i had a hard time washing the back of my hair yesterday while avoiding the fringe at the same time. (also equally hard when im trying to wash my ears) but i think it's more than 24 hours, i think the rebonding should have set in quite some bit by now.