suddenly i have the urge to be girly.

right now im just looking at online shops selling clothes and the girls modelling the clothes are those japanese/taiwanese style kinds with long hair with big curls and nice tops and dresses and suddenly i feel so small and blah. i wear crap clothes and have spiky hair. ok i don't exactly spike my hair everday so it's not exactly spiky all the time but when i don't spike it it sticks out in all directions and looks very messy and crazy.

i wanna be girly now.

but i guess after two days i'll be back to my weird old self again and like my crappy clothes and spiky hair. hahahaha.

and i cna't imagine myself with long permed hair and in super girly clothes.

took this with my mom about 2 months ago. she looks more excited than me haha.


anyway serene says i laugh funny!! she says when i laugh i sound like i cannot catch my breath (it's true sometimes i can't but you mean others can?) and that i need to 'add oil' to my laughing. i dunno how to add oil to my laughing. never noticed i laugh differently from others. or maybe it's cuz im a sulky person and hardly laugh and so once i laugh im not used to it and cannot catch my breath.

right now im a little obsessed with lee sungmin. he's so charming!!!! he's like a little charming prince!!! <3

okok right now it's saturday night.

just gotten an idustrial done just now.

the piercing hurt!!!! it hurt pretty bad actually. more than my conch piercing. plus it's two piercings. but i wanted a snug piercing but the piercer present didn't do snugs so i did industrial on impulse since i wanted a helix piercing too and industrials are just two helix piercings. but it hurt. but not enough to make me cry. ok now i have to face another 9~10 months of healing. gonna pierce my snug hopefully this saturday. i like my industrial piercing! but it still feels hot right now. i hope it will heal properly since industrials don't heal as well since perfect alignment of the two piercings is impossible. anyway piercer says i one of the better customers, cuz i don't scream, or faint. i just sat through the terrible pain. it's terrible, but i guess i just didn't show it, though i did look frightened and was trembling after the piercing was done cuz it was so painful. i still could smile and joke though hahaha. i guess my pain threshold isn't as low as i thought.

i keep bumping my piercing into things and snagging it on clothes x.x urghhhh